Oh yeah, babe, if you’re reading this, I am finished with the “Senti” CD … 18 of the mushiest sentimental songs you’ll ever hear, hehe … it reminds me of my freshman college days, when my lovestruck classmates and I would listen to these songs over bottles of beer and little platitos of mani while hanging out outside our dormitories. Ah, how naive we were…
It’s official – I’m going to Canada!
Well, not right away, I still have to process my papers and pay the fees, but my mind has been set… It’s high time that I jumpstart my life and the best way to do it would be in a new country, with my fiancé …
(my girlfriend might think I’m ahead of myself, but I’m sure she won’t mind)
It’s almost exciting thinking about it… I’ve had my fill of the United States, and while it is still a great country to live in, my luck here has been lousy the past few years. I badly need to extricate myself from this proverbial hole, to start fresh, and to suceed in my own terms.
I don’t know how soon I can begin it, I just know that it has to be as soon as possible.
I had a lot of things to write here, but I had a bit of a run-in with some old friends in another site. Let’s just say that cutting old ties is harder than I thought, but it’s all for the best, for me and for them.
I always have an idea on what to post here while I am doing something else away from the computer, but when the time comes for me to post it, I forget it … maybe I should buy a portable recorder….
Damn, what a week … I finally get to stay online for more than a few minutes – it’s been hell trying to update stuff and having your connection barf on you every few moments. Well, the new cable modem I bought should fix all this … hopefully.
Anyway, I have just finished incorporating the layout onto my reviews section. Go check it if you have time, I got a DVD review of The Last temptation of Christ there, the first of many reviews I’ll be making. Share your own views if you want!
Right now, I’m too sleepy to tell you what’s been happening since the last time I made a journal entry, but all in good time. I got several things to tell you, but you’ll have to come back and see 
Today marks the second anniversary of the infamous terrorist attack on America, particularly the devastating attack on the World Trade Center that took the lives of almost 3,000 people. It was the worst terrorist attack in world history, a dubious distinction that will continue to haunt the Bush Administration for its entire tenure.
One question that always came up whenever people remember this event was, where were you, and what were you doing when the terrorist attacks were taking place?
I myself was at home, before going to work. My clock’s alarm, instead of that annoying beeping noise, was the radio instead. And as I woke up grudgingly that day, I heard something on the radio that was very disturbing. The radio announcer kept saying “terrible tragedy” and “shocking turn of events” over and over.
As I got up from my bed, I thought it was yet another report on the Middle East crisis, like the usual Israeli-Palestinian bombing that seems to happen every week. But as I headed for the bathroom, I heard “World Trade Center” and I stopped in my tracks. Now I was beginning to think that maybe there was a fire happening near the World Trade Center and that people were being evacuated. The “tragedy” in my mind was hundreds of people caught inside the building.
Disturbed but still unpreturbed, I took a shower and a few minutes later I returned to my room, only to hear the word “World Trade Center” still being uttered in such a grim voice that I turned up the radio and tried to listen to the details while I dressed.
And then I finally heard the grim details. The twin towers were on fire… BOTH of them. That airplanes have crashed into both of them.
I went out and turned on the TV, thinking that an event of this magnitude would be aired in all news channels. And that’s when I saw the sight that would haunt me for a long time. The twin towers burning, and the huge black smoke erupting from each of them.
For the next hour or two my eyes were locked onto the television screen, as I saw one tower crumble down, and the other follow suit not long after. It was a surreal experience and one that I can’t forget as long as I lived. The World Trade Center has been a landmark for me personally, one of the things I have associated with the United States since I was a kid, next to the Statue of Liberty. I even remember giving it out as an answer as the tallest man-made structure in the world in a grade school quiz bee. And now, they are gone. It was like losing a very good friend. Almost a family member to me.
Shellshocked was an understatement when I finally went to work (I was obviously late coz I watched the terrorist attacks on TV for more than two hours). Everyone at work was grim, and those with radios were all tuned to radio broadcasts of the attack. I didn’t speak more than two words the whole time I was there working. I was still dumbstruck and in a state of bewilderment. I still couldn’t believe it happened, and I couldn’t concentrate on my work. A couple co-workers were sniffling in the corner, and the cubicles were silent… so silent that we could hear the radio broadcast being blared two rooms away.
I asked to go home early because I couldn’t concentrate on my work, and our manager understood and said yes. The wine store I worked in closed early that day, because there were almost no customers, and almost all the employees wanted to go home and watch the news anyway.
By the time I got home, I had already recovered from the shock and watched more of what was still happening in the aftermath of the terrorist attacks. My first reaction was “the people who did this should die a slow, painful death.”
September 11 was the turning point of all the good fortune I was getting that year. I had an appointment with a potential employer on September 14, one that would’ve given me twice the salary I was earning at the wine store, and a job that I really liked. But that appointment was cancelled because of the recent events and they never called me again. A couple months later, I heard they were laying off employees, which explained the cancellation. Since I had already told the wine store that I was leaving and I have even trained my replacement, I was left in limbo. And that was only the beginning of my bad luck.
Suffice to say, 9/11 affected me more profoundly than anything else. I ruined my chances for a better way of life, it delayed my papers, and it brutally opened my eyes to the painful truth, that there is no limit to the evil that the human mind can accomplish…
I just finished changing the layout for the photo gallery, and it is now back in circulation. I’m still working on the reviews section and the message board, though. Might get it done before the end of the week.
If you are interested in reading my old journal entries, you can do so by making use of the Journal button above (yes, they are now working … somewhat). You can also peruse one of the links at the bottom of this page.
Maybe you’re wondering why I’m using a blue toyota celica as a divider for my journal entries. Well, first of all, it’s the car I have. And second, I didn’t like any of the dividers I created (and I don’t like the idea of a simple horizontal line, either). Sure, it might be tacky, but what the fuck do you care, it’s my site 
Oh, maybe you’re also wondering about the little quote on top… I found this quote while searching for angst on Google (don’t ask me why). I kinda liked it, so I put it in. It’s an apt description of my thoughts majority of the time … well, sometimes…
This was the promotion slogan for Superman when it was first shown in theaters in 1978…
I was listening to the DVD commentary of Superman (again), while I was working on updating the layout of the photo gallery, and I can’t help but be fairly impressed with the amount of work and dedication that went into the production of the film. Notwithstanding the conflicts that permeated the film althroughout its production, the films still stands today as one of the best super hero movies ever produced.
The opening fanfare by John Williams still gives me goosebumps, and remains one of my favorite movie themes of all time (just behind Star Wars). I recommend that you rent (or buy) the Superman DVD just for the documentaries and the enjoyable commentary (never mind the hackneyed sequels, the first one is still the best one).
Just spent the last couple of hours watching The Godfather on DVD (for the sixth time) …
I have been convincing my brother, Rodell, to watch it for the longest time. He has slight skepticism towards “gangster” movies, and I told him that he should try watching the movie that almost every American has probably seen in his or her lifetime. He made the first step by sitting around during the first few scenes of the movie, with me doing a little background as he watched (a’la Cliff’s Notes) … I seem to be getting his interest, although he is still understandably skeptic.
Maybe the recent interest can be attributed to a PS2 game, Grand Theft Auto III, which he has been playing for the past few days. The gangster-ridden plot seems to intrigue him, and it may be slowly conditioning his mind to accepting the dark life in the underworld.
Maybe he can finally watch it next week, or next month. It would be a shame to not experience one of the greatest American movies ever produced.
Isn’t it funny that this site suddenly went to a grinding halt after April Fool’s? And isn’t it an amusing trend that there is always a new layout each time I come back and say “I’m back”?
Well, as you can see, this is a kinda different setup once again … a little more snazzy than my last layout, and definitely much better.
This is also my first journal entry using Moveable Type for the first time (a departure from Blogger that I was using last year). This script kicks ass!
Anyway, don’t bother trying the buttons on top – they don’t work yet. I’m converting the entire site to use the new layout, and I’ll make it a point not to leave any broken links anymore. I can always give an ETA on when everything’s gonna be finished, but it always backfires on me. Something always comes up. So I guess it’ll be done when it gets done. Soon.
That’s all for now. Feel free to comment on the layout. It also allows me to see if the Moveable Type script works as great as I think it does. I set this up on my brother’s site several months ago.
I like this new layout a lot. I hope you do, too..
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